Family image

I was born into a family that cares deeply of their image. When I say image, I mean from our looks to our reputation, and to the entire family's reputation. It really does suck at some level because my parents doesn't care about our happiness, but rather than their image and what their friends think about our family. For example, if I want to do something, like dye my hair, I'm strictly not allowed to because other people might think that I'm wild and that my parents raised me to be a disappointment. So talking about this subject, my sisters and I, being girls, are extremely pressured to look good, and act good. The fact that we are asians, it leaves us a total disadvantage when it comes to our weight because Asians are typically tiny and petite. So the fact that my older sister and I were basically raised here in America, eating American's food, we are a little bigger than the typical asian size. I don't like it when I'm compared to other asian girls, because I feel like this is who I am, and I shouldn't have to change myself and try to be someone else. Thus, because our weight, my parents are ashamed our my sister and I, and feel embarrassed everytime their friends meet us. It saddens me to the point that I feel like I don't know my parents anymore. Sometimes I think they're so selfish into the "family image" and their pride, that they don't see what and how it's affecting both my sister and I.